Bullshit..... ?

I am romantically impaired. Not that I am not loving, or affectation, (I am extremely affectionate towards friends.) I am just painfully slow in the ways of "love". (romantic of course.)

To keep my embarrassment to a minimum, lets just say I haven't even "stepped up to bat". No boyfriends. I'm 16. 

I believe I have a theory for my romance-handicappedness. I'm not what you would call.... romance friendly. In fact, I am one of the most negative (at least about myself) people you could meet (about that topic.) 

I'm not up front with it. It's not like I walk up to every guy I meet and say, "I think most romantic relationships are a wast of time, and cause too much god damn pain. So I'm not even going to try to find "the one". (which I also think is bullshit, because out of the billions of people on earth, and you have to locate "the one"?" , Bullshitttttt. There will always be someone more compatible for you out there for you.) but I think I send out scary vibes or negative vibes, or what ever the fuck else you want to call them, hence the reason guys seem to fear me. 

It could also be there are scared of my... bold, upfront personality?

...Or they could just be shallow bastards who don't want anything to do with me since I'm not "hot". (Don't get me wrong, I'm not ugly, but I consider myself... lower on looks scale. Especially when I'm with my friends. But what ever.)

Also, I need another word for romance. It killed me to use it this many times. 

Can you use the quixotic for me in a sentence? I think I know how to use it, but I don't want to be the idiot who epicly fails at using it, and then has to go back and explain shit...

I'm done with this topic. 

I think I'm going to go eat an apple.